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Friday, December 21, 2012

Saying Goodbye

I think I am going to quit blogging here. I am going to blog over at my over blog, Living In The Moment. I am trying to rethink my blog and what I want to do with it. I will leave these posts up for myself and others. Be sure to come to my main blog, Living In The Moment and see what's happening. God bless you all!

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Becoming More Like Christ Through Your Children

I have been thinking a lot about my life now compared to my life before a husband and children. They look so different,but it's not in a bad way. I was so comfortable in my life prior to being a Mother. I really had no idea how comfortable either. I remember praying almost daily for the Lord to make me mold-able and mold me more into the image of Christ. Little did I know, He would do that with my children.

I stayed at my college Sunday-Tuesday and was home the remaining days of the week with my parents. I went to church every Sunday and every Wednesday. I always knew what to expect and it was very comfortable to me. We had powerful services where people cried out to God for many different things and I was being changed,but I was still comfortable. Does that make sense? I really didn't have many challenges. I did well in college,I had great friends,I had a wonderful family,and I lived monetarily comfortable. The biggest challenge was a test to study for or being afraid to do a drama on stage with the Joshua Generation. At the time,those seemed huge and to God they did matter. They did help mold me when I called on the Lord for His help and strength.I just had no idea that the "hard" molding would be after I had children. I don't say that in a bad way or a demeaning way. I love my children and I am honored God gifted me with them. I had no idea what Motherhood would be like. I wasn't sure what to expect. I was very much awakened to my selfishness though. I learned to put myself last and my babies first. I am still learning that. I look back and think wow to have a test to study for again ha! I have to draw from Him every second of the day or I will not make it. Dependent? Why yes,very! Crying babies,fighting brothers,and a dirty house can get to anyone after a while. I am raising human beings! How can I not depend on God for guidance?! Though some days I long to be carefree young one again,I am thankful for the things God uses to mold more into His image. My boys are so sweet and loving. They sure aren't perfect,but they sure are my heart.

I have learned so much about how God sees me as His child by having children. I love my children even when they do wrong and when they do something I have told them not too. God feels the same about me. Nothing really can change how He feels towards me. He loves me with an ever lasting love. My children are not old enough to do something that would be so shocking to us as parents yet,but I can imagine my love would not change for them. I may be angry,upset,shocked,or even ashamed,but I will still love them. It's amazing how God uses our children in so many ways to relate to us. So God knew what He was doing by giving me children. I struggled with a lot as I grew up. I was also so shy,timid,and fearful. The Lord has delivered me from such things. It tries to rear it's ugly head time to time,but I know now I am loved by my Father in heaven. I don't need man's approval on my looks because my Father says He sings over me with His banner of love. I don't need to put my trust in lucky charms to ward off evil,I have the Word of God that puts fear into the powers of darkness. I don't have to feel unworthy or invisible I know God sees every aspect of my being and my worth lies in Him alone. My husband doesn't bring me worth nor do my kids. My Father's thoughts of me brings my worth. I am simply worth loving because He says so. Isn't that wonderful?! The passage in Romans 8 that takes talks about not being separated from the love of Christ has a whole new meaning when you know  your Father intimately and if you have children it sheds a new light on it also.

I used to think I had to be perfect in order for God to love me and this was when I was born again and seeking God. I wasn't in a sinful state. I thought I had to pray so many hours a day,read so many chapters a day in my Bible,and go to church every time the doors were open. In my new phase of life,God has been showing me that the apostles were by no means perfect. Peter cursed,Paul killed many Christians,and others did things that were not right in God's eyes. They repented for their sin though. They never were perfect as Jesus,but they never stopped seeing what they did as sin when it was sin. I may not can pray for hours without distraction or read 10 chapters of the Bible a day without distraction. I will get angry at my kids and yell. I will get frustrated with my husband and not tell him. I will get annoyed by having to pick up a zillion times during the day. BUT I have to continually repent for my thoughts and my words. I have to acknowledge I sinned and  look to God to help me not to continue to make the same mistakes over and over. My outlook on a Christian life has changed a lot in 6 years. God has opened my eyes to a lot of things I thought were true,that are not true by any means. He's showed me a lot through my children.

So what have you learned through your children? What has God taught you about Himself and yourself?


Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword?
 As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter.
 Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us.
 For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,
 Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
 Romans 8:35-39

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Writing A Little

It's been awhile since I have written at this blog. Things have gotten sort of busy around our home. I have updated a few times on my other blog Becoming A Titus 2 Woman,but not a lot. I just need to write some.

I am 6 days away from having my third child. Yes, 3rd,it takes me by surprise every now and then. It's my third boy too. That really takes me by surprise. How did me,the girly girl, end up with 3 little boys? God saw fit that's how. I really love it! I would never have thought I wanted 3 boys,but I love watching this little men grow. I will be going in for a schedule c-section the morning of Wednesday 29th. It will be my third one,but unlike the other two it's planned. I'm not nervous yet,but I am sure I will have some nervousness that morning,then again may be not.

Life will forever change again for my husband and I. We joke that every time we think we are out of the woods with the baby we get pregnant again. It's funny. Our first definitely wasn't planned 4 months into our marriage and well the other two weren't planned as far as are we ready for another? Do we want another now? It's what happens to married couples I am told. You reproduce your legacy. It'll be fun having that newborn around again. That smell. That touch. That feel of being their all in all. My 3 year old is growing up so much. He is starting to transition to Daddy's boy. I must admit there is a tad of sadness at times. Not that he wants his Daddy,but that he is growing up. He will be 18 before we know it. He is starting to really show his masculinity too. Yesterday, he said look at my muscles. Then, he kept on saying watch Mama what I can pick up and picking up anything he thought was deemed heavy. It was cute. My 20 month old is still a Mama's baby,but is picking Daddy to do more than he used too. He's following in brother's footsteps and of course wants to do everything Daniel does. What will I do when my last is all grown up? I'll be sad I know. It's strange how you wish the days away when they are so young,but when they are grown you wonder where the time went. The last few weeks I have been trying,key word trying, to just enjoy it being them two since I knew when Johnathan would arrive. I admit that is hard when you have 40 extra lbs,are very tired,stay hungry,and have no family near to relieve you. It's hard,very hard,but like I was telling my husband anything worth fighting for is the blood,sweat,and tears so to say. We are fighting for our boys and their lives. That may not make sense at first,but we are doing just that. There is an enemy who seeks to kill,steal,and destroy anyone he can. He doesn't care how old or young the prey is,just as long as he can do those three things. I admit too,it's so hard to remember to pray,pray,pray when you are neck deep in dishes,diapers,and whining children. When do you have the time? Where do you find the time? I've had to learn to adjust big time. I am a planner and well with kids really nothing stays how you plan it most of the time. I think it's just a way for God to help us let go of what we think is the right or perfect way. I hate when things do not go as I have planned out in my head,but I have been working on that too. I'm learning Mama sets the tone of the household whether she knows it or not.

With all the growing up they do comes more understanding of things. Daniel and I have some great talks about a lot of things. He remembers and will ask more questions. That is what I love. I feel like finally I am doing something worthwhile,in reality what we do before then is worthwhile too,but it may not feel like it. Meeting your baby's needs up until the point of pre-school age is very important. I can say I have met my 2 babies needs beyond that and it's not been easy,but it's been what I am called to do. Daniel likes to get his story book Bible out and pick a story and let me read it to him. We talk about the day Jesus will return too. Usually during supper I turn the radio on the local Christian station too and he loves that. I talk to him about serving God or serving the devil. He loves to hear about Jesus on the cross,but it makes him sad too. I explain to him if not for that we would have no personal connection with God. Of course, he doesn't understand it all,but it's stepping stone. We pray what we discuss with them at an early age will be itched in their hearts and mind as we continue to talk about more at different ages. It's really awesome. I love that part of being a Mom.  Another part I love is when Daniel tells me he loves my hair or my toes are pretty,meaning the polish. He randomly hugs me or says I love your spaghetti. Aaron is saying I love you now and it's so cute and sweet. So the hard,trying days are definitely worth it.

Your prayers would be appreciated next week as we go in for surgery. Peace of my family. My Mother will be coming to watch our boys while we are in the hospital and a little bit after to help out. I'll be sure to update and put some pictures up. If you have twitter and don't follow me,request too b/c I will have pictures on there. HeatherKae27 is my name. Thank you in advance for your prayers!

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Did you think this is where you would be?

I'm editing and cropping pictures on my computer from December. As I look at them, I know I am blessed. My boys are so beautiful inside and out. Their eyes twinkle and sparkle. You can see adventure in their eyes and you can see love in them. Being a Mother is very hard sometimes,but it is so rewarding. There are days when I think what have I done?! Two kids under 2 and one on the way?? Then, I have these moments,I know it's not what I've done,but what God has done. He's blessed my husband and I with 2 vibrant children,boys to be exact. Now we are awaiting to know what our third child will be. It's weird to think when I was in high school God knew what laid ahead in my future specifically. Some people don't think God is a personal God,well He is. He's very personal. To the point He knows how many hairs are on my head and yours too.

He has a specific purpose for our lives I believe and a general purpose. I believe the general purpose is to come to know Christ as your Savior and to glorify God. For each person I do believe He has a specific plan. Some He wants to go to other countries and spread the good news of His Gospel. Others he wants them to work at places we think you may not share the Gospel, like Wal-Mart,Burger King,and so on. Then He has those like me, and many of you, who are to stay at home with your children and teach them His laws,Word,and statues. I remember growing up used to want to be a lawyer. It was my dream. I watched a lot of Matlock. :) I wanted that even until I was in high school. I did not want to be a wife or a Mother really. My Mom stayed home with us until I was in the 10th grade. Some unfortunate events happened and she had to go to work and bring in income. But in that God used her and still uses her to spread His Word to those she meets and works with. God knew she would have to go to work one day and since she was willing to be a light,He continues to bless her. I just never thought I would find the man of my dreams. Didn't we all want that? The guy who made us swoon. The one who said all the right things. I think most of us did.

After high school I waited 2 years before entering college. I met some people and begin attending a new church. There I think I really begin to trust God with all of my life. I had said a prayer at 10 asking Jesus into my heart,but I really did nothing after that. I really had no clue what it was like to live for God or be on fire with passion for the Lord. I did not have wild life,but I had no passion. I said vain prayers and wasted much of my time. In my early 20's I began to devour the Word. I would stay in my room for hours reading and highlighting and writing down passages. My Momma would come into check on me and see if I was alright. I then went on a mission trip that really rocked my world. I knew I was designed for a purpose and my heart went to missions. Three years went by and I had graduated from college and found the man of my dreams. Though he doesn't always say the right things,he does make me swoon. His love for me does not have to be shown with diamonds or flowers. It does not have to be in a Valentine's present each year with a dozen of roses. His love is shown for me through his hard work he does as a State Trooper;through his eyes as he tells me I love you; through how he takes care of our boys; through staying faithful to me even in a very tempting job environment. So I can say I would not have thought this is where I would be at age 27. I really thought I would be in the mission field fighting of diseases and bringing the Word to a foreign people. But like Psalms says,As for God, his way is perfect: the word of the LORD is tried: he is a buckler to all those that trust in him.Psalm 18:30. I love being a wife and Mother. I love staying at home. I love washing dishes and vacuuming (most of the time hehe..). I love what God has called me to do.

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

It's Gonna Be Worth It

I have not been around much due to the morning/afternoon sickness and just being busy. I wasn't sick up until week 7,then it got bad and that was last week. I eat pretty good in the morning and at lunch,then for a short period I am blah and feel sick. Sometimes it last until I go to bed and sometimes it doesn't. I got to see my Nurse Midwife(she is in the hospital,so technically a Certified Nurse Midwife) on the 6th of November. She had Thyroid surgery not long ago and was only going to be in for 2 weeks and then out until the first of January. We corresponded through email and she saw me on a day she doesn't see patients. I think it's pretty cool I have that close of a relationship with her.

So we talked about the pregnancy and the birth. I did not know what to really expect as far as what she would suggest. There are 12 months between all the pregnancies. With Daniel I found out right around his 1st birthday I was pregnant and the same thing happened this time. When Aaron had turned 1 I was already 4 weeks. I never would have dreamed that would have happened either. We were not planning to have anymore so soon due to medical factors. I had 2 c-sections after laboring a good while with both boys. My uterus just wasn't in great shape and we wanted to wait at least 2 years. She asked first what I wanted and I was honest with her. I told her I had no clue what I wanted. We talked about it a little more and she told me what she would suggest. I trust her and value her opinion. She gave me the reasons and I really do know it is for the best. She suggested to schedule a c-section at 39 weeks. Though it is not what I want at all,I do think it would be wiser this time around. She said if there were 18 months between each birth she would suggest labor some,but she just doesn't want to risk anything. She helped me last time go for a VBAC and we really thought it was going to happen. I was very let down and very depressed about not getting the vaginal birth. It was like working to hard and it crashing on you. I still do not know why it could not just magically happen,but all I knew to do was trust God.

Like I said we were not planning anymore for awhile,well, obviously God had other plans for us. I know He knows what is best,but it didn't change the fact I was a little scared. I never wanted a period so bad. I went to the bathroom numerous time a day for like a week and just knew I would not be pregnant. It's not that we did not want more children,but it was the timing. We knew for about 2 weeks before telling our families and friends. We are excited! It just doesn't feel real. I can't believe I'll be a mother for 3. So after talking with Cindy and I consulted Tammy(the friend I used for my Doula,who is also a Midwife) I think we will just schedule a c-section. I really don't have a choice unless I want to fight for labor. I trust Cindy and I know she isn't just doing this to get me out of her way. She wants to be there with us during the c-section and afterwards to help me nurse. She is a wonderful woman and Nurse Midwife.

I have to be honest though. My heart is hurting. I long for the natural birth. I did both labors before without medication,but never got the vaginal birth. It's just something I am very passionate about. Sometimes my passions can really hurt me,if that makes sense. I am very determined and very strong willed when I think it is the only way or the right way. My NM isn't saying I can never have a vaginal birth,just that I should let more space be between the births. So I know it is possible,it would just be a lot of changes in my eating habits,more so than with the last pregnancy. I have so much to write,but just am not ready yet. I really need God to heal me inside,emotionally. I know it may sound silly to some of you,I thought so too when I would read about women not birthing how they wanted and being very upset. But your prayers would be appreciated. I know I am no less of a woman just because I have to have a c-section,but deep down you hear a lot of things from the enemy. You see these other women have 4 and 5 hour births with no problem and you labor for 42 hours with no avail. It really will scar you. I know on the other side I may know why God chose this path for me,but for now all I can do is praise Him in the storm. I know also I have SO much to look forward too. A sweet little baby. A newborn. Another child to rear by God's Word. I am so blessed,but I am deeply wounded. Yes, we'll have the c-section and I will bring that beautiful baby home,but when I'm all alone I will always wonder why this path God.

Thank you for your prayers and comments.




Saturday, November 6, 2010

God's Blessings

We found out last week that I am pregnant with our third child. We were a little shocked,but happy too. I was really hoping for that time of the month to roll around. Aaron just turned a year on the 23rd. I was a little concerned with my body. I had 2 c-sections with the last 2 babies and my uterus was not in great shape. I kept thinking there is no way I can be pregnant again. But after talking to God,my husband,and friends I know God has my best interest at heart.

It's not easy being a Mother,but it is so rewarding. I get to impact souls directly for the kingdom. Wow. It's not easy giving up your fertility to God either. I don't use birth control,but only chart my fertility. I believe it's the best and most natural way to space your kids out if you wish. There are 21 months between Daniel and Aaron and there will be 21 months between Aaron and this baby. Ironic? I think not. I kept thinking how in the world will I take care of 3 under 3? Daniel will be 3 1/2 and Aaron will be almost 2. I know there will be tough days,but God will be there to guide me. He will provide me with the strength and grace to parent and take care of these little ones. I feel humbled and honored really.

Who knows how many more we will have? I don't,but God does. He will watch over me and the baby these 9 months and bring us through delivery. I'm not sure about how I will deliver either. I want a VBAC,but we will have to see. God knows how I will deliver. I can strive for the best and He will work out the rest. Just keep us in your prayers. We do not live close to family or friends. So it can be stressful for me when my husband leaves and goes to work daily. Thank you! Off on another journey!

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

What is the true origin of Christmas?

After reading this post from Ashley@Putting God First and then this one from Sarah Mae@Like a Warm Cup of Coffee, I started thinking about somethings. My husband likes the part of Christmas that pertains to the birth of Christ,but he doesn't like the commercialization of it. I don't either,but I love to decorate and pull the Christmas Tree out. I have been wanting to do something different though. Not the same ol' thing. Different is born in me,it's a part of my being. It always has been. My Mother will be the first to tell you that. When everyone else was wearing the new styles,I stuck with my old ones. When everyone else was doing this,I was doing opposite. Now, that I'm a believer in Christ I want to be the different He wants me to be. Back to the Christmas subject. On Sarah Mae's post she talks about Advent Calender and the Jesse Tree. That isn't the only website for the Jesse Tree,but I liked the devotions and ornaments from that one. I really liked that idea! I thought, I will tell my husband about it and see what he thinks. I wanted to incorporate more about Jesus birth and not just about presents and we don't do the whole santa claus thing either. My husband liked the idea,but suggested we just keep our tree or get a smaller one. We both said we could keep talking about it and see what we would do. I used to be one who thought without a Christmas Tree it just didn't feel like Christmas. How naive of me. How ridiculous. I always said well it's just a family tradition that I love to do. Decorate the tree,the house,and go looks at lights. Hmm.... I think God is stirring something in me and calling me to let go of somethings.

Today I read this post from At the Well. I really liked it. I read about why Lisa and her family do not do Halloween and read some of the links. God prompted me to do a search on the origin of Christmas..... Did I want too? Sort of,but not completely. I found a few sites that I skimmed over found some pretty disturbing facts. I found one I was reading,but I haven't finished. It seems very reliable,but I haven't read it all. This is the site,ChristmasTruth.info . It hasn't got the author or anything about who is composing the information. If anyone could help me find out who it is,I would like that. It isn't just a thrown together site that's for sure,it has resources with each statement. The others I found were with denominations.

 I started thinking, I can't not do "Christmas"! What will our family think? Our friends? My husband? I'm not saying what I will do as of now. I do know that God has brought me to this for a reason. I discussed it some with my husband this morning and he said we could do some research and pray about it to see what God takes us. I have come to a place over the last year where I am ready and willing to let go of the tradition though. By that I mean, the decorating and all. It's about Christ,not a tree,or decorations. From some of the sites I have been reading the day we celebrate his birth is nowhere close to the  date some have gained from facts. It's a pagan day for the sung god. I won't go into more about all that, you can read and research it. If it is a pagan holiday that is still celebrated and it is not even remotely close to his birthday I just do not want to celebrate it on that day. I'm an all or nothing type of person. My husband will tell you that.

Is it crazy that God may be leading me not to celebrate Christmas on this day? I don't know. I don't think it is. He calls us to things that He may not call others too. I'm not writing this to condemn or judge,as my blog says it's from my heart. I have questions and I just want to do what God wants us to do,not my family,friends,or the world. Anyone have any thoughts for me? We are a very different family anyways,so this wouldn't shock anyone I don't think. They may think we are nuts,but oh well I guess. My husband and I will be researching and praying about this. Thanks for reading and for any input.

Monday, September 27, 2010

God Always Confirms

I just love when God confirms His promises and our prayers. He is such a big,loving God!

Thursday I asked everyone and God to give me peace over the weekend while my husband was out of town. It can get a little chaotic with a 2 1/2 year old and an 11 month old. I'm a planner by nature and well it is hard to really plan with little ones,something usually doesn't go as planned. When I read my verse for the day, it was John 14:27, Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid. I was just amazed. That quick,Lord? So I went to mark it off in the calender(it's a David Wilkerson verse calender that I love) and I was going to share the verse so I went to it again. At the time I wasn't paying attention to the number of the verse. The book actually had John 14:7 instead of verse 27. So I was like okay did I read the wrong one? But no I did not. God gave me that verse so I would know His peace was my peace. How awesome is that? It's been awhile since I have had God or that I have noticed God do something like that for me. I love Him so much,though I fail so much! Oh How he loves us,oh how He loves,how He loves us oh! I love that song! Sometimes I just weep while listening to it. Such a big God loves me. A number to the world,just a nobody. But to God I am a beautiful daughter of His!


Today At the Well in our study Makeover of the Heart, Tracy said something in her video that was later confirmed through scripture. She talked about how the devil was trying to steal her joy,but for my he tries to make me feel like God does not love me when bad or unexpected things happen,even small things. She said no weapon formed against me shall prosper,this verse I know by heart. I learned it years ago. No weapon that is formed against thee shall prosper; and every tongue that shall rise against thee in judgment thou shalt condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the LORD, and their righteousness is of me, saith the LORD. Isaiah 54:17 Low and behold it is my verse for today. I have to start realizing God may allow things to happen,but it is to grow me closer to Him. The devil is the one who delights in evil things that happen to people,not God. God does not want bad to come to people,but when you are not His child you open yourself up to it more and even when you are His child bad things will happen. 


Which leads to the next verse that was in my 5 minute devotion.And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. II Corinthians 12:9 When things do happen,God's grace is extended to me and sufficient for me. All I have to do is call upon His name. God is so awesome! Words cannot describe how much He does care for us. Why would He give us little promises throughout the day and little reminders He is our Father, if He did not love us so much?


Yes,God's grace is always sufficient,and His arms are always open to give it. But,will our arms be open to receive it? -Beth Moore


God's saints in all ages have realized that God was enough for them. God is enough for all time; God is enough for eternity. God is enough!- Hannah Whitall Smith


Dear Lord, as I face the challenges of this day, You protect me. I thank You,Father, for Your love and for Your strength. I will lean upon You today and forever. Amen.

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Another Video About Prayer

Here is something I found on the Voice of Martyr's blog, Check it out. Sued Over Prayer.

I have some ideas for Christmas I am going to write about soon. :) So stay tuned!

Thursday, September 16, 2010

The Advent Conspiracy

I came across something interesting on Ashley @ Putting God First. It is called The Advent Conspiracy. It is definitely something I wanted to share with ya'll. Have a blessed day!

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Prayer and Planned Parenthood

This is a video I stumbled across and I thought it was very disturbing. I wanted to share with you all! Click here for the video. Share with others!!

Friday, September 10, 2010

You Are Beautiful

My study this week centered on the way God sees us as women verses the way the world or even others see us. I have a passion to see women be who God wants them to be and see themselves that way; a passion to see women come back to modesty in their life.

It's really so sad to see so many girls/women dress the way they do and act the way they do. It breaks my heart. God has some pretty awesome thoughts about us as His children and daughters,but so many times we let the enemy,others,or ourselves define who we are. We often forget we are not defined by others,the world,the devil,or our circumstances. I have even been subject to do this to myself. There are so many billboards, commercials,shows on t.v.,and lots of other things that make women out to be seductive,evil,and dumb. I believe we are by nature sinners and without Christ we are those things. Even with Christ we can still be those things unless we submit every area to Him. The Word says to take captive the thoughts and submit them to the authority of Christ.


 3 For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war after the flesh:
 4(For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds;)
 5Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ;
 6And having in a readiness to revenge all disobedience, when your obedience is fulfilled. 
  II Corinthians 10:3-6

This is a quote from the study "You see, Satan desires to have women in a stronghold of exploitation,sexplotiation,distortion,and desolation. He knows how effective and influential women can be,so he works through society to convince us we are so much less than we are." -Beth Moore. How true is this? A lot of men do not think this way either,but the world leads us to believe all men view us this way. It's an ugly cycle. When I was in college I grew a lot in my relationship with the Lord. Before I went off to college I defined myself by what others thought of me. I was the 4-eyed,skinny,shy girl that never spoke unless spoking too for fear of saying something stupid or dumb. God begin a process in me and He is not finished yet. He begin to draw me into His chambers and show me how He sees me. Even though I had let go of a lot of the insecurities and timidness in college, I still was defining beauty by my looks. You would not catch me out of the house with make up on! I went to the tanning bed to become tan looking so I would be pretty to others and even myself. I always had to fix my hair no matter what. I was defining myself through society and others. I begin to realize make up,tanning,and my hair did not define who I was. God defined who I was. To Him according to the Word I was beautiful. Not just on the outside,but on the inside. I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well. Psalm 139:14 This became a verse God spoke to me and it is one of my favorites verses. Fearfully in this context meant something majestic and beautiful,not ugly. I now go out in public without make up some and I certainly don't fix my hair no matter what. I also have not went to the tanning bed in almost 5 years. I see myself the way Christ sees me and it helps that my husband sees me that way too. He loves me even when my face is all broke out,I am fair as Snow White,and my hair is all sorts of ways! It breaks God's heart when we,as women and girls, try to gain the world's approval by our dress or looks. He sees us on the inside and if we are born again in Christ,we are beautiful . He does not care if our nose is too big in our eyes or if are hips are too small in our eyes,He made us perfectly the way He wanted our bodies. Our bodies are to honor Him.

Another thing Beth addresses is how we see ourselves is how we will act. We act out who we think we are. If that makes sense. 10I will greatly rejoice in the LORD, my soul shall be joyful in my God; for he hath clothed me with the garments of salvation, he hath covered me with the robe of righteousness, as a bridegroom decketh himself with ornaments, and as a bride adorneth herself with her jewels. Isaiah 61:10 "I also believe this is how the enemy sees you. He just does not want you to know it. His job is to deceive us into believing we are so much less than we are. Why? Because he knows we'll act like who we think we are. No matter what has happened to us,what we have done,or where we have been, you and I are brides! It's high time we see ourselves as we really are." -Beth Moore. I believe this is so true! After I had my second son, I was in a depression. I had to c-sections that were not planned and were thought would be a vaginal birth. A few days after the birth, I remember thinking I am such a failure. I cannot even birth my own child. I did not want to admit this to anyone,but this is how I felt. It was all a lie! I had birthed them,but had to have help. They were both still my blood sons! Instead of seeing how good I had done during labor and trying to get them here, I believe the lies the devil wanted me too. I wasn't any less of a woman than any other woman,but I was acting like it. 

Don't see yourself as any other way,but how God sees you. If you have asked forgiveness of the sins you commit,God sees you as clean. This is something I am passionate about. We can be so affective when we see and act as God sees us. 

  13The king's daughter is all glorious within: her clothing is of wrought gold.
 14She shall be brought unto the king in raiment of needlework: the virgins her companions that follow her shall be brought unto thee.
 15With gladness and rejoicing shall they be brought: they shall enter into the king's palace.
  Psalm 45:13-15



Wednesday, September 1, 2010

In America?

A friend of mine sent me this link. It is crazy what the government or States want our Law Enforcement Officers to be doing. They could be fighting the real crime and not something petty. Take a look.

http://www.persecutionblog.com/2010/06/dearborn-michigan-wont-allow-distribution-of-the-gospel-in-public-areas.html

Here is something my friend sent me. This is pretty disturbing! I'm sort of in shock over this one. Take a look.

http://www.adfmedia.org/News/PRDetail/4140

Is this America or Russia? Or China? Or what? This is insane. These are the things I want to make known to many who do not know about it. I had no clue about these 2 incidents,thank to Hollie I do now and I am making you aware of them. All comments will have to be approved by me. I don't mind a disagreement,but no foul language of any kind will be posted. Thank you! Let freedom ring!

Back In Business

It's been quite awhile since I have wrote anything here,but I want to start using it again. My other blog Becoming A Titus 2 Woman is where I do weekly meme's. I want to use this one to rely important info that the mainstream media will not tell you and also to write what is on my heart. I pray it blesses,encourages,and informs!!

So I'll begin with my morning. I woke up very early to go get groceries. I love getting up early to do this. I get to drive alone and shop alone,giving me time to meditate,pray,and ponder. I was hoping not to spend too much on groceries(not just food,but other things included) since we did an Angel Food Ministry box for this month. I always make a list and try very hard to stick to it. I compared prices and bought brands we usually don't get to try and cut down on cost. I got to the register and was chatting with the cashier,when she said the amount,which was only $41 over what I wanted to spend,but still. My heart sank. I remembered I had a coupon for the gas drops and it knocked $2 dollars off. I kept thinking, 'What did I do? I stuck to my list and I even got things that were cheaper than what we normally buy.' Our budget is tight usually at the first of the month like most families.

I thought to myself, we will never get ahead. We will never get out of the small apartment with many,many neighbors, and lots of crime(not so much at the apartment,but around us). I strapped on my seat belt,turned the radio up,and went along with the errands. Chris Tomlin's new song 'Our God' came on and listening to the words encouraged me. Our God is greater,our God is stronger. And if our God is for us,then what can stop us? And if our God is with us,then what can stand against? I popped in one of my worship song cd's and just soaked it up. I could hear the Lord saying You will get out. You will make it. I have overcome. I started thinking about all the ways God had provided for us in the past. I remembered the verse in Philippians 4:19 where he says that he will provide all our need. My heart begin to smile a little. I also remembered that we aren't always promised an easy road. But I did remember He said cast your care upon me. So that is just what I did. I told the Lord, I know it looks bad and we still have other bills to pay and our tithe to give,but we will give and we will make it. He knows what we do not know and all I need to do is trust.

This was my daily verse for the day. Cast thy burden upon the LORD, and he shall sustain thee: he shall never suffer the righteous to be moved. Psalm 55:22  I read it while lunch was baking in the oven. I smiled and thanked God. I was tempted not to tithe,but I said no devil you are not scheming me. We will give our tithe and our support to some missionary friends. I refuse to give in and be sad or discouraged. I hope you do too!!









Saturday, October 11, 2008

AFA Drops Boycott

The American Family Association (AFA) is ending its boycott of McDonald's.

Mississippi-based AFA called for the boycott in May after the fast food giant joined the National Gay and Lesbian Chamber of Commerce. McDonald's has notified the pro-homosexual organization that McDonald's vice president Richard Ellis resigned from the board of directors of NGLCC and his seat on the board will not be replaced.

In a press release on Thursday morning, AFA reports that in an email from McDonald's to its franchise owners the company stated its policy is "to not be involved in political and social issues."

Randy Sharp is director of special projects with AFA. He says McDonald's has pledged to remain neutral in the culture war surrounding homosexual marriage. "

The franchise owners understood very early that this was an issue that McDonald's did not need to be involved in from a corporate level, and [that] they needed to stick with serving good food products in a convenient way, at a good price."

McDonald's officials also said the company has no plans to renew its membership in the NGLCC when it expires in December.

Others can learn

AFA president Tim Wildmon says it's encouraging that the world's largest global foodservice retailer has pledged to remain neutral in the culture war. He says other corporations can learn from McDonald's decision to not be involved in political or social issues.

"That's been our appeal to these corporations," he explains. "...[J]ust stay neutral [and] don't give money to organizations that are going to fight against traditional values. And we try to tell folks [that] many of [their] customers are traditional values folks, and don't offend them by supporting gay and lesbian activist groups."

AFA founder and chairman Donald E. Wildmon states that his pro-family organization "appreciate[s] the decision by McDonald's to no longer support political activity by homosexual activist organizations."

Editor's Note: The American Family Association is the parent organization of the American Family News Network, which operates OneNewsNow.com.

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Breaking Laws

NBC allows s-word on live TV - no bleeps, no apologies, no nothin'

On Thursday, September 11th, at approximately 7:37 a.m. Eastern time, Today show guest Hans Lange emphatically said "Holy S--t" in an interview with host Matt Lauer. Instead of apologizing to the audience, Lauer and his crew broke out in extended laughter after Lange said the phrase. View the scene here (at the 3:50 mark in the video).

NBC uses a five-second delay in many live broadcasts, but chose not to use it here. As a result, NBC purposely allowed profane language to be used in violation of broadcast decency laws!Keep in mind that NBC thinks it owns the public airwaves and doesn't have a responsibility to control profanity on live broadcasts. Having sued the FCC in order to continue their filthy ways is just one more indication that they have no respect for children and families.If you are fed up the networks' arrogance in defiantly spewing profanity on live TV, take action!If you live in the Eastern Time zone, file a complaint with the FCC now! (The network did bleep tape delayed airings of the interview.)

Send Your Letter Now!

Sincerely,
Donald E. Wildmon, ChairmanOneMillionMoms.com
P.S. Please forward this to your family and friends!

Monday, September 15, 2008

Let's Pray For Ray Boltz

Boltz shocks Christian community with homosexuality admission


There is shock and sadness in the Christian community over word that famed Christian music singer Ray Boltz has publicly announced he’s living a homosexual lifestyle.

"If this is the way God made me, then this is the way I’m going to live...I really feel closer to God because I no longer hate myself." Those were the words of Ray Boltz in an interview with the Washington Blade about his decision to engage in homosexuality. Boltz, a father of four who was married for 33 years before officially divorcing his wife this year, is well-known for his widely acclaimed songs "Thank You" and "I Pledge Allegiance to the Lamb."

The disclosure by Boltz was stunning news to former homosexual Greg Quinlan who is now with the New Jersey Family Policy Council.

"I’m absolutely shocked. I've got some of his CDs and cassette tapes –- tells you how long it's been around. When he says he's born that way, we know now for a fact that that's false. In fact, just last year in March, the director of the Human Genome Project, Dr. Francis Collins, said this: homosexuality is not hardwired. There is no gay gene. We mapped the human genome. We now know there is no genetic cause for homosexuality."

When asked about Boltz's homosexuality, The Gospel Music Association -- the group which gives out the Dove Awards -- told the Blade, "We do not comment on the lifestyle choices of people in our community."

According to Quinlan, by making such a statement the GMA seems to be "enabling a behavior that is totally inconsistent, incongruent with the message of the gospel."

Friday, September 5, 2008

Urgent Message from Lou Engle and Matt Lockett

Dear Bound4LIFE Family,
Four years ago Lou Engle and a small company of young people gathered for 50 days of round-the-clock prayer for the ’04 elections. That company was then divinely launched to Washington, DC for daily focused intercession in front of the Supreme Court. A cry for justice took shape through a curious piece of RED TAPE over their mouths as they silently “lobbied” Heaven for a pro-life President, righteous Judges and the overturning of Roe v. Wade. That faithful stand became what you now know as the Bound4LIFE Movement. At this four-year anniversary I want to thank you for however you’ve helped to see this vision spread like wildfire throughout the nation.

Once again we find ourselves at a pivotal moment in our history with the elections looming large on the horizon.

Prayer mobilization is exploding throughout the body of Christ as we are about to enter into an intense period of time before these Elections. I can’t help but wonder how high the stakes are when God is beckoning so many into the place of prayer and fasting right now. For 40 days there will be two strategic prayer strikes coordinated on both coasts. Lou Engle will be leading 40 days in San Diego with a strong focus on the marriage amendment facing California voters on November 4th. At the same time I will be leading 40 days in Washington, DC with an intensified focus on the Presidential Election and righteous Judges on the Supreme Court. I believe the fate of the nation hangs in the balance between these two seats of power and influence. Will the advance of the culture of death and false ideologies be thrown back or will the nation be swept away in a deluge of chaos and immorality?

Facedown40- Sept 24-Nov 2

I will be leading this initiative in DC with a core team of young volunteers from around the country.

I will be leading this initiative in DC with a core team of young volunteers from around the country. Bound4LIFE Chapter Leaders will also join throughout the 40 days as schedules allow. A generation is being trained and equipped to fight the battles of the Lord. LIVE VIDEO and WRITTEN UPDATES will keep you connected and informed of the teams insights and direction. Go to http://www.bound4life.com/ to follow throughout the 40 days.
I invite you to listen to an IMPORTANT CONFERENENCE CALL with LOU ENGLE and MATT LOCKETT describing the 40-day initiative and the urgency of this hour. Simply go to http://bound4life.com/conferencecall to listen to the recorded message at your own convenience.

Would you please consider sowing financially into this vital prayer initiative RIGHT NOW? Your contribution will go directly toward making this 40 Day Prayer Strike have maximum impact.

Pressing on in faith, hope and love.
Matt LockettExecutive DirectorBound4LIFE Intl.

Thursday, September 4, 2008

Take Action: McDonald's; Results from CBS

Verse of the day:

“Hold fast the form of sound words, which thou hast heard of me, in faith and love which is in Christ Jesus. That good thing which was committed unto thee keep by the Holy Ghost which dwelleth in us.”- 2 Timothy 1:13-14



CBS takes financial hit before dropping ‘Swingtown’

The CBS network finally heard you loud and clear after losing millions of dollars in the Swingtown money pit.

As a result of your dedicated efforts in convincing every major advertiser to pull their commercial ads from Swingtown, CBS has decided to pull the plug and give up.

Swingtown was another brash attempt by CBS to push the envelope on network television. The weekly dose of group se*, casual drug use and teacher-student intimate relationships took its toll as ratings plummeted and advertisers put it on their “do not buy” list.

I firmly believe had you not taken time to get involved, this program would continue to air. Thanks to you, CBS has lost this fight and is giving up. The final episode will air this Friday night.

Thank you for your continued support. We are seeing great results!
Sincerely,
Donald E. Wildmon, Chairman
http://www.onemillionmoms.com/
P.S. Please forward this to your family and friends!




McDonald's pays 56 employees to attend meeting promoting the gay agenda

Sign the online Boycott McDonald’s petition.• Forward this to family and friends and ask them to sign the petition.• Print and distribute the Boycott McDonald’s petition.• VERY IMPORTANT! Call your local McDonald’s. Speak with the manager. Tell him or her (in a polite manner) that you will be boycotting McDonald’s until they stop promoting the homosexual agenda, including homosexual marriage. To find the phone number of your nearest McDonald’s, click here. • For more information on the McDonald's boycott, click here.


In January, McDonald’s paid for travel and accommodations for 56 employees to attend the “Pioneer Summit” in San Diego. The purpose of the meeting was to develop a plan to promote the gay agenda within the company. Those attending were thrilled that McDonald’s showed such support for their agenda.

“It was truly inspiring to see McDonald’s Lesbian, Gay, Bi-Sexual and Transgender members come together to share heartfelt, personal stories about their journeys, challenges and personal reflections. Better understanding these journeys … will help us better grow our people in the restaurants and across the company,” said Brian Unger, senior vice president.

AFA has asked McDonald’s to remain neutral in the culture battle – to neither oppose nor support the gay agenda. McDonald’s has refused, choosing to support those groups and individuals promoting the gay agenda — including homosexual marriage. A McDonald’s official (Bill Whitman) went so far as to say that those who oppose the gay agenda are motivated by hate.

Thank you for caring enough to get involved. If you feel our efforts are worthy of support, would you consider making a small tax-deductible contribution to help us continue?

Sincerely, Donald E. Wildmon,
Founder and Chairman
American Family Association


http://www.afa.com/
http://www.onemillionsmoms.com/

Friday, August 22, 2008

Taking Action: Swingtown,Hallmark,Honda, & U.S. Senate

Contact Burlington Coat Factory

CBS' Swingtown continues to trash the public airwaves with moral sewage. Last Friday night's episode (August 15) included:

-A teacher/student bedroom scene
-A man snorting cocain off a woman's stomach
-Qualudes being passed around like candyYoung teens playing strip poker
-4-way s** scene

Sadly, Burlington has a long reputation of being a "distressed merchandise" advertiser, meaning they buy ads for pennies on the dollar with shows that can't get reputable advertisers.

TAKE ACTION:Contact Burlington Coat Factory today! They were recently bought by Bain Capital. Hopefully, the new owners will have conscience and withdraw their ad support from CBS' Swingtown.

Note: Don't delete this email! It is possible that Burlington will reject your letter. If so, you may wish to call them directly. Their corporate number is 888-223-2628.

Sincerely,
Donald E. Wildmon,
ChairmanOneMillionMoms.com
P.S. Please forward this to your family and friends!


Hallmark pushes same-sex marriage

Hallmark Greeting Cards has announced it will begin selling same-sex wedding cards, even though same-sex marriage is legal in only two states. The purpose, they say, is to satisfy consumer demand. It appears that their purpose is also to push same-sex marriage. Last year Hallmark began offering "coming out" cards - as in "coming out of the closet" -- a euphemism for announcing homosexuality.

We've all given or received Hallmark Cards – remember their slogan – "when you care enough to send the very best." But promoting same-sex marriage for profit is not the very best for families or our nation. Hallmark is a private company obviously driven by greed. Let them know you do not appreciate Hallmark promoting a lifestyle which is illegal in 48 states. American Greeting Cards, Hallmark's competitor, does not offer same-sex marriage cards.

After sending your email, call Hallmark's corporate office. Their number is 816-274-5111.

Thank you for caring enough to get involved. If you feel our efforts are worthy of support, would you consider making a small tax-deductible contribution to help us continue?

Sincerely,
Donald E. Wildmon,
Founder and Chairman
American Family Association


Gay rights trump religious freedom
Honda of Alabama takes logical and reasonable position.

The California Supreme Court, which recently legalized same-sex marriage, has ruled by a 7-0 vote that homosexual rights trump religious freedom. The ruling barred doctors, because of their Christian beliefs, from withholding unnecessary medical care to gays and lesbians. The ruling says that under state law sexual orientation rights trump religious freedom.

Justice Joyce Kennard wrote in the ruling that two Christian fertility doctors who refused to artificially inseminate a lesbian have neither a free speech right nor a religious exemption from the state's law, which "imposes on business establishments certain antidiscrimination obligations."

Doctors at the Christian clinic referred the lesbian to another clinic, but the lesbian refused their referral - demanding that the Christian clinic perform the procedure. When the Christian doctors refused to violate their religious convictions, the lesbian sued and the Supreme Court gave her the victory.

This ruling will affect every business in California. If a similar victory in a federal court is won, every business in America will be affected.

For example: Alabama Fertility Specialists (AFS) has begun a campaign to bring Honda of Alabama to its knees because Honda will not cover artificial insemination for a lesbian in it’s insurance.

Honda advised their insurance carrier to "exclude domestic partners (same-sex partners) from ART (Assisted Reproductive Technology) benefits including diagnostic services related to fertility/infertility..." If this doesn't work, then count on AFS to sue.

Alabama Fertility Specialists alerted the media, their supporters and gay groups about Honda’s actions and called on supporters and gays to bombard Honda with phone calls and letters.

Make a phone call thanking Honda. The number is 205-355-8000 .

Thank you for caring enough to get involved. If you feel our efforts are worthy of support, would you consider making a small tax-deductible contribution to help us continue?

Sincerely,
Donald E. Wildmon,
Founder and Chairman
American Family Association


Indecency legislation stalled in U.S. SenateUrgent: call your senators to urge Sen. Reid to schedule a vote for S. 1780

Did you know that the four major television networks have declared war on decency by suing the FCC for the right to air profanity and nudity at any time of day? We do have a counter attack but the Protecting Children from Indecent Programming Act (S. 1780) is currently stalled in the U.S. Senate. The Act (S. 1780) would reaffirm Congress' support for vigorous enforcement of the existing broadcast decency laws and the importance of protecting the public airwaves from indecent content.

In order to ensure the Federal Communications Commission's (FCC) ability to fine broadcasters over "fleeting" instances of profanity or nudity, S. 1780 needs to be voted on by the full Senate. If S. 1780 does not pass, the Broadcast Decency Enforcement Act passed two years ago will be rendered essentially meaningless.

Recently, the 3rd U.S. Circuit Court of Appeals in Philadelphia threw out a $550,000 indecency fine levied against CBS for the infamous 2004 Super Bowl "wardrobe malfunction." CBS also allowed profanity during Big Brother 10, which airs during prime time.

We are in a pivotal time regarding the ownership of America's broadcast airwaves. The law says these airwaves belong to the American people, but the networks are trying to take them over and turn them into a toxic sewer. Now is the time to fight back!

Thank you for caring enough to get involved. If you feel our efforts are worthy of support, would you consider making a small tax-deductible contribution to help us continue?

Sincerely,
Donald E. Wildmon,
Founder and Chairman
American Family Association


You can go to the AFA and One Million Moms websites to send the emails.

Blessings!